I am one number away

 

Even though taking yourself away from a toxic situation is undeniably the right thing to do for your health and personal growth, it is not always easy. I find myself drawn to memories of the past, calling to me and dragging my defenses down slowly. Bringing me ever so much closer to calling you, but I am still one number away. . .

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Yes, we had good times. We had bad times. We had periods of not speaking. Even though you are no longer central in my life does not mean I did not care or love you. It doesn’t mean I currently don’t care or love you. Each of us is fighting a battle internally that nobody else truly knows. We all have our demons we need to work on. Sometimes a little space and time apart are what is needed: to remind us of what is important; who we want to be; who we really are.

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To those who have ever been removed from my life or those I have distanced myself from, I wish you no ill will. I wish you a happy and productive life. I wish things could be how they once were, but time has a way of changing things.

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This dress from [WellMade] is absolutely stunning. It offers many colors to choose from. You can also hide the sleeves, allowing this dress to be extremely customizable. The slippers were soft and subtle keep in mind you have to hunt for these at Ostara’s Altar; there are so many wonderful gifts available so long as you do not mind taking the time to find them. Some stores are even offering more than one gift, so keep your eyes peeled, some of them are quite easy to miss!

 

 

 

 

Credits

✩ ✩ ✩ AVATAR ✩ ✩ ✩
HeadCatwa Catya
HairMagika Please ( Group Gift)
SkinPumec Alexa – May
Shape[Elle et Lui] Baby Cat Shape (edited)
Body ⇨ Maitreya Lara
Lipstick ⇨ {LBB} Carnival Queen Makeup @ TWE12VE
Outfit ⇨ [WellMade] Alura Dress
ShoesSenzafine “Dawn” Brocade Slippers @ Ostara’s Altar Hunt

❀ ❀ ❀SCENE❀ ❀ ❀
BackdropWeArH0uSE [vent] Backdrop @ Hello Tuesday
Pose*!R.O!* 11 Minutes BENTO Pose

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Retrograde

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So, Mercury is in retrograde…AGAIN. I so wish that this particular presentation of Mercury would cease to exist! Communication fails E P I C A L L Y during retrograde. Electronics go funky. Emotions run on a roller-coaster of either 0 Km/H or  120 Km/H.

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This is not a fun time to be around people for emaths like myself. I got enough of my own psychotic energy rushing around, I do not need others also. When this happens I am a sponge and soak in everyone else >.>

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SO I will sink into my happy place and rest and recharge. I will refuel my soul with some nice alone time. It does not mean I do not want to be around my family and friends; it simply means sometimes a heart like mine can only fill their own cup b a little alone time. Being alone to me does not necessarily equate to being lonely.

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Credits

Head Catwa Catya
Hair Magika Honest (Group Gift)
Skin Pumec Alexa May
Freckles Zombie Suicide Veeka Freckles @ Skin Fair 2019
Shape [Elle et Lui] BabyCat (Edited)
Outfit [WellMade] Evanna Shirt & Shorts
Nails Koffin Nails Holographic Heaven

Scene
Bed – 1NNOVAT1ON .: AGATA :. BedSet
CurtainDi’Cor Emilia Curtains Solid
BuildingOnsu ~ “Cucumber” House
Nightstand1NNOVAT1ON .: AGATA :. BedSet Boxes
Wall Decor – #Besom~ Dream Catcher Purple
Pose – *!R.O!* Sleepy BENTO Pose

I’m here for the party

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Glitter everywhere, ringing in the new year with champagne and friends,                what more could you want?

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CREDITS

Basic Info
Eyes // Euphorie – Pear Eyes – Catwa (Gift on MP)
Hair // TRUTH VIP Gift December – Joy
Eyeshadow // Spicy Glitter eyeshadows @ The Makeover Room December
Dress // [WellMade] Courtney Gown

Champagne Bottle & Glass (held) // {Flair ‘n’ Style} New Year Champagne Set
Pose // {Flair ‘n’ Style} New Year Champagne Stand
Cart 1 // dust bunny . happy hour tray (left of avatar)
Cart 2 // MudHoney Taryn Bar Cart (right of avatar)
Champagne Tower // MOoH! Champagne tower gold ( Prev Gacha Life item)
Drink Shaker // MudHoney Drink Shaker (from Taryn Set)
Bottle 1 // MudHoney Wine Bottle (from Taryn Set)
Bottle 2// MudHoney Vodka Bottle (from Taryn Set)
Curtains // Astralia Ribbons Curtain @ n21 December
Stars // floorplan. hanging stars @ n21 December

What do you see?

What do you see when you close your eyes? 

What do you see when you try to hide?

What do you see that makes you cry?

Do you see me, do you see inside

Do you see the heart that breaks, 

The little girl soul who’s wide awake

Do you see my vulnerability

or just an annoyance, 

do you see something?

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What do you see when you look left? Right? Behind you?

Do you see the path you didn’t travel?

Do you see a future or a past of regret?

Do you see what made you – you?

Who are you when no one is looking

What do you see?

Because I have faded, 

What do you see

I can not see me



CREDITS

Basic Info
Hair | TRUTH Ciara VIP
Eyes | Izzie’s Dilated Eyes
Eyeshadow | [POUT!] Occult Eyeshadow @ The Makeover Room November 2018
Lipstick| .kosmetik Matten Velvet @ The Makeover Room November 2018
Top | [WellMade] Carrie Top
Pants | MOoH! Karen Jeans (Group Discount L$99 until 11/15)
Pose | *!R.O!* Perspective

Lighting Effects | FOXCITY. SkinFX – Cold Mornings ( For Bright WLs)
FOXCITY. SkinFX – Horror Show ( For Dark WLs)

Building | taikou / aoyama skybox

Shadow kissed

ShadowKissed.png Have you been shadow kissed?  Do you know someone who has been?

Do you know what being shadow kissed is?

Shadow kissed is a term for those who have been kissed by the brush of death, felt it’s tight embrace and yet miraculously survived an un-survivable thing.

I’ve been shadow kissed more than once,

It is both beautiful and terrifying.

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I am not the gentlest being, I do have compassion and I recognize my blessings, but being shadow kissed also comes as a curse . A nightmare that allows me to see the veil, to pierce it all year long, even when I wish not to.

Can I undo being

SHADOW KISSED?

 


CREDITS

Basic Info 

Hair

new cursiveTruth Batty VIP Gift October

Makeup

new cursiveDark Passions Bleeding Mascara Makeup @ One Upon A Nightmare Hunt (ends 10/30)

Nails

new cursiveDark Passions Pumpkin Party @ One Upon A Nightmare Hunt (ends 10/30)

Top

new cursive{zfg}   Autumn @ The Guest List

Pose

new cursive<EMOZIONE> Poses **Headshot Series  @ Cosmopolitan (edited)

 

Death’s Embrace

Smoldering, pining away since you left

I am nothing of who I once was, nor who I was meant to become

When you left, when death took you

Most of who I was , was now long gone

I crave to hold you in my arms, just once more

through the thinning of the veil,

My love, mi amor

Please return to me when the world thins,

I need to hold you, embrace you

for if I don’t . . .

death will win

Death will take me as his own

because without you ,

I am all alone

For even in your absence, in your death

I now hold my breath,

through death,

for one last kiss . . .

I wait for Death’s Embrace.


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CREDITS

Basic Info 

Hair –  Sintiklia – Amara – Naturals @ Hairfair ( ends 10/7/18)

Top – Wellmade Faith Top

Bottom – Blueberry Ela Shorts

Eyeshadow – VEECHI Vivid Distress Shadow @ FLF 10/5/18

Lipstick – [POUT] Toxic Spill Black Lipstick

Nails – Dark Passions || Grave Digger Nails @ The Dark Style Fair (10/1 -10/31)

Nose Piercing – Slack Girl – Nose Piercing Black – The Chapter Four Gift May 2017

Pose/Prop – Le Poppycock || *Necromantic* Mad Hungering @ Pose Fair

Backdrop – *PL* backdrop #11 @ Backdrop City

 

 

A Night at Home #132

As the sun settles and the day comes to completion, I find myself in the company of my furry ones. Sometimes they get me better then people do. I never have to lie to them or hide who I am. They truly love me unconditionally. I love snuggling into them and giving them love and getting kisses and headbutts in return. Oh how sweet it is to simply have a night at home.


 

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CREDITS

Hair – Elikatira Nadia
Shape – [Elle et Lui] Ingrid Shape
Skin – Pink Fuel Sabine HAZEL
Top – MOoH! Unicorn Tube Top  (Group discount  $L99. Aug 24 – Sept 6 )
Shorts – [WellMade] Lorelei Shorts
Shoes – -KC- Rhea Heels
SCENE
Stools – Lush – Glam Stool Black Lace – Rare @ The Gacha Life
               Lush – Glam Stool Diamond RARE @ The Gacha Life
Rugs – +Half-Deer+ Messy Blanket/Rug (Black)
+Half-Deer+ Messy Blanket/Rug (Black – Polkadot)
Cat – +Half-Deer+ First Class Kitty – Luxury Toys – Snow