Quiet Nights #209

Longing for their touch and caress, long-distance relationships can be difficult for all involved. It becomes more difficult when the connection is intense because you are in the BDSM/DDlg type relationship. Sub-drop is much more piercing because of the distance of not having their physical touch for aftercare or when you just need it.

It can definitely work, but it is just that work. It takes both parties and constant communication. Both have to be dedicated and open to making the effort. I am glad to say that in every way we can, my LD Daddy finds ways to stay in touch and keep me lifted. I can only hope that I am pleasing and lift him the same way.

Our daily communication through our computer screens makes the distance seem to disappear. I long for the simple nights when we have our arms around each other for real.

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The knee scrapes from The White Crow at Afterglow are absolutely adorable. They are realistic and come in 3 levels of intensity:  Soft, Sore, Hurts. They are omega appliers and they are called  “Beg for It”.

This top from [QE] at LOADING . . .  is divine. It comes with a gorgeous HUD to change the textures and they are super endearing. Grab this before it is gone, you only have until July 29th! 

CREDITS

Body | Maitreya Mesh Body
Head | CATWA Catya
Hair | Fabia <Like> Gift 1
Top | [QE] Gamer Tee @ LOADING . . .
Bottoms | Just Because – Terri Panties
Knee scrapes | TWC – Beg for It @ AFTERGLOW
Pose | Image Essentials – Laptop Longing @ Ebento
Building | TDE ~ Ponyvale Estate Manor
Ring | Astralia – Twin Souls ( Engagement Ring)
Navel Piercing | PUNCH Diamond Pearl @ Mermaid Cove

Mine #202

Accuse me of something repeatedly. Tell me I am doing something continuously.

I dare you to keep up that behavior! Watch me change how I act.

Watch me become exactly what you claim I am doing.

Challenge Accepted. you started the game, but I will win it.

I will own it. This is now MINE.

 You lost a queen bee by playing with fake butterflies.

According to you, I am selfish, two-faced, oblivious.

According to them, I am everything you claim I am not.

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Credits

-Hunni-
Body | Maitreya Lara
Head | LeLutka Piper
Hair | Stealthic Ivy
LipStick | Stunner Originals Lip Shade
Eyeshadow | Veechi Bold Smokey Wing
Skin | Glam Affair Tone 6
Eyes | Izzie’s Winter Eyes (Fantasy)
Outfit | S&P Bound Bride Gacha – Dress Long: Red

-Axel-
Body | Belleza Jake
Head | Catwa – Daniel
Hair | Stealthic – Baron
Skin | Stray Dog Sermon Tone 6
Eyes | Madame Noir David Eyes (opt 7)
Outfit | [AdN] Fashion Suit

– Scene –
Pose| Adent Poses – Looking Out for You @ On9
Chairs| Grandma Noonie’s Chair – The Artist Shed @ TWE12VE
Fireplace| Mesh Nation FP Fireplace
Rug| [QE Home] Circular Rug -Black Magic-
Table| The Loft & Aria – Hexa Industrial Table
Table Plant| [Park Place] Cat Palm Table Plant
Mantle Plants| The Loft – Hudson Vase Brass
Mirror| The Loft – Hudson Wall Mirror Brass
Candles| Fancy Decor: Vertical Candles
Building| LH – Traditional – Winchester

Don’t Care Anymore #197

Have you ever reached that moment when you reflect upon the past and you just do not care about the hurt or pain that transpired you just wish the people of your past happiness and no ill will?  I found a moment of that today. I wish those in the past nothing but the best. I hope all their adventures and whatnot turn out exactly as they want them to.

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What hurts the most about not caring anymore, is missing them and wishing they were still in your life despite knowing reinviting them would not be the wisest choice one could make.

Credits

Head | LeLutka Piper
Hair | TRUTH Ambriel
Body | Maitreya
Eyes | Liquid Colors of Nature Emerald Forrest
Skin | Glam Affair Tone 6 applier
Top | 1313* Mockingbird Lane Spring Cleaning Tanks Gacha Collection
Pants | Blueberry Grace with Boots
Pose | Luanes World What I miss the Most
Rings | (Yummy) Free Spirit Rings
Eyeshadow | Izzie’s LeLutka – Perfect Liner
Lipstick | Izzie’s Black Lipstick
Necklace | Amala -Tattoo Choker

I am one number away

 

Even though taking yourself away from a toxic situation is undeniably the right thing to do for your health and personal growth, it is not always easy. I find myself drawn to memories of the past, calling to me and dragging my defenses down slowly. Bringing me ever so much closer to calling you, but I am still one number away. . .

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Yes, we had good times. We had bad times. We had periods of not speaking. Even though you are no longer central in my life does not mean I did not care or love you. It doesn’t mean I currently don’t care or love you. Each of us is fighting a battle internally that nobody else truly knows. We all have our demons we need to work on. Sometimes a little space and time apart are what is needed: to remind us of what is important; who we want to be; who we really are.

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To those who have ever been removed from my life or those I have distanced myself from, I wish you no ill will. I wish you a happy and productive life. I wish things could be how they once were, but time has a way of changing things.

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This dress from [WellMade] is absolutely stunning. It offers many colors to choose from. You can also hide the sleeves, allowing this dress to be extremely customizable. The slippers were soft and subtle keep in mind you have to hunt for these at Ostara’s Altar; there are so many wonderful gifts available so long as you do not mind taking the time to find them. Some stores are even offering more than one gift, so keep your eyes peeled, some of them are quite easy to miss!

 

 

 

 

Credits

✩ ✩ ✩ AVATAR ✩ ✩ ✩
HeadCatwa Catya
HairMagika Please ( Group Gift)
SkinPumec Alexa – May
Shape[Elle et Lui] Baby Cat Shape (edited)
Body ⇨ Maitreya Lara
Lipstick ⇨ {LBB} Carnival Queen Makeup @ TWE12VE
Outfit ⇨ [WellMade] Alura Dress
ShoesSenzafine “Dawn” Brocade Slippers @ Ostara’s Altar Hunt

❀ ❀ ❀SCENE❀ ❀ ❀
BackdropWeArH0uSE [vent] Backdrop @ Hello Tuesday
Pose*!R.O!* 11 Minutes BENTO Pose

Retrograde

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So, Mercury is in retrograde…AGAIN. I so wish that this particular presentation of Mercury would cease to exist! Communication fails E P I C A L L Y during retrograde. Electronics go funky. Emotions run on a roller-coaster of either 0 Km/H or  120 Km/H.

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This is not a fun time to be around people for emaths like myself. I got enough of my own psychotic energy rushing around, I do not need others also. When this happens I am a sponge and soak in everyone else >.>

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SO I will sink into my happy place and rest and recharge. I will refuel my soul with some nice alone time. It does not mean I do not want to be around my family and friends; it simply means sometimes a heart like mine can only fill their own cup b a little alone time. Being alone to me does not necessarily equate to being lonely.

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Credits

Head Catwa Catya
Hair Magika Honest (Group Gift)
Skin Pumec Alexa May
Freckles Zombie Suicide Veeka Freckles @ Skin Fair 2019
Shape [Elle et Lui] BabyCat (Edited)
Outfit [WellMade] Evanna Shirt & Shorts
Nails Koffin Nails Holographic Heaven

Scene
Bed – 1NNOVAT1ON .: AGATA :. BedSet
CurtainDi’Cor Emilia Curtains Solid
BuildingOnsu ~ “Cucumber” House
Nightstand1NNOVAT1ON .: AGATA :. BedSet Boxes
Wall Decor – #Besom~ Dream Catcher Purple
Pose – *!R.O!* Sleepy BENTO Pose

Only wanna talk to You

The only thing I’m really sure of
I’m unsure of almost everything
But I’m looking up and looking forward
There’s nothing back there for you or me
So you say you are
Broken, beaten
Used and mistreated
Tired, shattered
Bruised and battered
The only thing I’m really sure of
I’m unsure of almost everything
But I know, I know, I

I only wanna talk to you

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This pose from Ardent Poses is super cute and I am so grateful and thankful I won the Facebook giveaway! The dress from [WellMade] is the perfect mix of girly and sexy for me. It is available exclusively at Designer Circle until March 16!

Credits

 
Model : Hunnidaniels Resident

Skin – PUMEC Alexa – May
Body- Maitreya Lara
Head- Catwa Catya
Shape – [Elle et Lui] BabyCat Shape (edited)
Hair – TRUTH Rumor

Outfit
Dress – [WellMade] Aurea Dress @ Designer Circle
Shoes –  -KC- Rhea
Model : Raylen Swordthain

Skin – Stray Dog Sermon
Body – Belleza Jake
Head – Catwa Skell Mesh Head
Hair – -FABIA- Mesh Hair <Peter>

Outfit
Top – Cold Ash – ELLIOT Short Sleeve Shirt
Pants- Cold Ash – HOLLOWAY Ripped Jeans

SCENE
Benches – Luxi & Style – Cuddles Bench
Fountain- CHEZ MOI Fountain Magnolia Fall
Pose – Ardent Poses – Yeah? @ On9
Walkway – {LORE} Stone Path
Trees – [Were Closed] Trees Spring 01
Fencing – Sway’s [Ethan] Brick with Hedge Fences & Archway
Grass- .Lunaria. Wispy Grass – Dew (edited)

Death’s Embrace

Smoldering, pining away since you left

I am nothing of who I once was, nor who I was meant to become

When you left, when death took you

Most of who I was , was now long gone

I crave to hold you in my arms, just once more

through the thinning of the veil,

My love, mi amor

Please return to me when the world thins,

I need to hold you, embrace you

for if I don’t . . .

death will win

Death will take me as his own

because without you ,

I am all alone

For even in your absence, in your death

I now hold my breath,

through death,

for one last kiss . . .

I wait for Death’s Embrace.


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CREDITS

Basic Info 

Hair –  Sintiklia – Amara – Naturals @ Hairfair ( ends 10/7/18)

Top – Wellmade Faith Top

Bottom – Blueberry Ela Shorts

Eyeshadow – VEECHI Vivid Distress Shadow @ FLF 10/5/18

Lipstick – [POUT] Toxic Spill Black Lipstick

Nails – Dark Passions || Grave Digger Nails @ The Dark Style Fair (10/1 -10/31)

Nose Piercing – Slack Girl – Nose Piercing Black – The Chapter Four Gift May 2017

Pose/Prop – Le Poppycock || *Necromantic* Mad Hungering @ Pose Fair

Backdrop – *PL* backdrop #11 @ Backdrop City